Other Half

It has been three months since Peter graduated BMT. It seems crazy that it has been that long. When I read stories about how couples who dealt with BMT they always talk about how much stronger their relationship was after being apart for two months. One of the things that I noticed about him being gone for BMT was not that we became "stronger" per say as a couple, but that we became much stronger as individuals. I'm not saying that we didn't gain strength as a couple being apart for two months. But we were already long distance, so the general struggles of being apart for months at a time were familiar to us. What I do see is that we have become stronger individuals. I gained a confidence while he was gone, that I had not had before. Confidence that I can do what I have to do when he is not here. He is my "other half", but I have the ability to function and go about my daily life without him by my physical side. One of the things I love about us is that we function very well as individuals, but then we get together and are able to balance out each other in ways we could not do one our own.
I am of course not saying that being apart doesn't SUCK. Because it does. There are countless nights where I am watching tv, or working on homework, or hanging out with people and wish that he was by my side. But being together in the same state right now is not what is best for both of us. So I will continue to focus on finishing school and preparing to become his wife in a few short months. Because that is what I have been called to do. And I will fulfill my duties as an individual to be best of my ability so that the end goal of us being together can be fulfilled.
And when it gets harder being apart and there are nights that I want to cry because I miss him I will hold on tight to "monkey". Monkey smells good (like him) and is a great stand-in for the next few months... Monkey always makes me feel better.

My "monkey" that he gave me. The bear I gave him.