Light bulb...

I think I'm starting to figure out something...God loves Peter. God loves Peter and he is so special to God. God loves taking care of Peter. He shows his love to Peter by providing for and taking care of him. There have been so many times where everything was hopeless and there was no apparent answer to the problem. But somehow it all worked out. It seems like we're doing really well, when suddenly something happens, everything is out of control. And we have no power to fix it. We are pushed to the point that the only thing we can do is pray. And cry. And pray some more. We can imagine the worse possible scenario and everything that can go wrong. But experience has shown miracles happening and the situation being resolved.
That's what is happening right now. There is a situation happening right now that could determine whether or not we are still in the military in 6 months. And at this point the solution is giving it all to God. He is the only one who can resolve this situation and bring peace. He can make it all better. He can fix everything. It doesn't mean he will. Or at least His answer may not be our answer. So it is my responsibility to be okay with whatever His answer is. All I can do is pray...and cry...and pray. And trust that God is in control of everything and that he has our best interest in mind. And deal with everything on a day by day basis.
Life with Peter is not going to be easy. There will always be challenges and scary moments. But we have God. And God is in control of EVERYTHING. I need to remember that and be willing to give him everything.

New Adventures...

The new year has been anything but boring. We started P90X, we started a new nutrition plan, and Peter has been officially diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD). This is a diagnoses that will not effect his job in a negative way...especially since he is not a pilot. It actually might help him. Honestly we are by no way surprised by this diagnoses...but having an actual diagnoses makes it a real, and in some ways, life altering issue for us.  ADHD is something that is over diagnosed among children, so most do not actually have it. But I can say that for those who really do have it it is a very real thing. It is basically a chemical imbalance in the brain that causes difficulty staying focused and attending to daily, mundane tasks. That is a VERY simplistic definition of adult ADD. Basically for us it means that Peter does certain things that can be highly irritating and to me feel like he doesn't care enough about me to do the "right thing", but in reality it is something that is an ADD symptom. This is a list of ADD symptoms:

• poor organizational skills (home, office, desk, or car is extremely messy and cluttered)
• tendency to procrastinate
• trouble starting and finishing projects
• chronic lateness
• frequently forgetting appointments, commitments, and deadlines
• constantly losing or misplacing things (keys, wallet, phone, documents, bills)
• underestimating the time it will take to complete tasks

Anybody who knows Peter is aware that this list is like reading his autobiography. Every Single One Of Them. My issue is learning the fine line between an ADD behavior and a behavior that he has control over and CAN change. My personal favorite symptom being Hyperfocus. That's the one where I go to bed and he tells me he'll finish up whatever he's doing on the computer and then follow me...I wake up 4 hrs later and he's still not in bed. At this point I have no idea how to deal with this one. It really is an ADD thing...but I can't help but feel less important...even though he's not doing it maliciously.
The doctor gave him some meds to try out...but the meds were taking away his appetite (a bad thing when trying to do P90X), making him somewhat sick, and making him extra sleepy. Not good things to deal with currently. So he will be trying a new med this week. I guess that medications will help him balance out how he focuses and whatnot...but I do not know exactly how that will change things. It is all a new adventure that will keep life with my airman interesting.

Here are a few Myths/Facts

MYTH: ADD/ADHD is just a lack of willpower. Persons with ADD/ADHD focus well on things that interest them; they could focus on any other tasks if they really wanted to.
FACT: ADD/ADHD looks very much like a willpower problem, but it isn’t. It’s essentially a chemical problem in the management systems of the brain.

MYTH: Someone can’t have ADD/ADHD and also have depression, anxiety, or other psychiatric problems.
FACT: A person with ADD/ADHD is six times more likely to have another psychiatric or learning disorder than most other people. ADD/ADHD usually overlaps with other disorders.

MYTH: Unless you have been diagnosed with ADD/ADHD as a child, you can’t have it as an adult.
FACT: Many adults struggle all their lives with unrecognized ADD/ADHD impairments. They haven’t received help because they assumed that their chronic difficulties, like depression or anxiety, were caused by other impairments that did not respond to usual treatment.

I think this goes for the spouse as well

http://lifewithadhd.tumblr.com/
http://helpguide.org/mental/adhd_add_adult_symptoms.htm

Resolutions...

I have never been a fan of New Years Resolutions. Mainly because I feel that New Years resolutions are made to be broken. That most people make them knowing full well that they will never keep them. So when on the last week of December we decided to start a new fitness/nutrition program on the next Monday (January 2nd) I wanted to make it very clear that this was NOT a New Years Resolution. Peter and I decided to do our first round of P90X. He desperately needs to get into shape for his PT test coming up. He is NOT getting the help that he needs meeting his fitness goals at work...so it is up to us to make sure that he meets those goals without outside help. ...and we need to start eating better and knock the junk food out of our diet. Neither one of us has ever done P90X...but I know that I am excited to start a new fitness program... especially one with my husband. One of the reasons we have not been working out together in the past is because I LOVE working out in the mornings. And that just doesn't work for him. And I REALLY didn't want to workout in the evenings. But now priorities have changed. It is now my priority to insure his success in every way that I possibly can. And at this point that means that I adjust my schedule to fit his in every way. Regardless of what is convenient for me. I was created to be his helpmeet... and that I will be.
Our new schedule consists of us working out when he gets home in the evenings. Making a healthy yummy supper afterwords and enjoying the rest of our evening.

It is looking to be a great healthy New Year. And whether you believe in New Year Resolutions or not... this is a great time of the year to make fitness changes. And as a Beachbody Coach I get to help others find their fitness groove while keeping mine and my husband's in check. A very awesome job.