Light bulb...

I think I'm starting to figure out something...God loves Peter. God loves Peter and he is so special to God. God loves taking care of Peter. He shows his love to Peter by providing for and taking care of him. There have been so many times where everything was hopeless and there was no apparent answer to the problem. But somehow it all worked out. It seems like we're doing really well, when suddenly something happens, everything is out of control. And we have no power to fix it. We are pushed to the point that the only thing we can do is pray. And cry. And pray some more. We can imagine the worse possible scenario and everything that can go wrong. But experience has shown miracles happening and the situation being resolved.
That's what is happening right now. There is a situation happening right now that could determine whether or not we are still in the military in 6 months. And at this point the solution is giving it all to God. He is the only one who can resolve this situation and bring peace. He can make it all better. He can fix everything. It doesn't mean he will. Or at least His answer may not be our answer. So it is my responsibility to be okay with whatever His answer is. All I can do is pray...and cry...and pray. And trust that God is in control of everything and that he has our best interest in mind. And deal with everything on a day by day basis.
Life with Peter is not going to be easy. There will always be challenges and scary moments. But we have God. And God is in control of EVERYTHING. I need to remember that and be willing to give him everything.